True Meaning of Life.

The true meaning of life is to be able to control one’s own life and not being controlled by other people. I want to be not free but a more controlled of my life. Been far away from what I have imagined but I seemed to have ruined my life so far. Not that I’m not being ungrateful but I lost control of what I want to do in being a human being. I need to really fully understand the reason of living in this world from now on. I might regret or maybe looked back at some of the wrong decisions that I took but I guess by taking one giant step I need to really take control of my life from now on.

Jack and Jill

Jack and Jill went up the hill to fetch a pail of water. Jack fell down and broke his crown and Jill came tumbling after. Probably some might say it's just a nursery rhyme to soothe children. I don't. It is an accident and since when accidents are considered as something soothing? Weird.
The point is I don't take it as a joke when it comes to slandering others. I am a mere human and am not an angel. Need to remind myself again and again not to try to overstep anymore broken glasses.. What past is past. Don't let history repeats itself again....

Roses are Red, Violets are Blue.

Life is not as simple as the primer colours or even flowers. Life is not also also a bed of roses but is also full with their thorns. Life has its ups and downs. Life is a box of chocolates, you'll never know what you're going to get. My life? Lots of colours when I was young but now I feel gray in colour. Am I becoming that old? Need to paint all the wonderful colours again and smell all those beautiful flowers. Need to feel that rollercoaster's-adrenalin-rush-ride again. Need to taste another box of chocs. Need to train myself slshing all the thorns and admire the beautiful roses again. Need to have a break and get a good life...Or maybe I just need a warm bath to get chill again.

Asking The Trees

I'm asking the trees why do they swaying to the breeze and they say the winds blew them away
But now,
I'm asking my heart why I can't seem to keep off forgetting this person out of my mind and it says that maybe you have fallen in love with him.

True To Yourself

Being true to yourself by speaking the truth is truthfully painful but is actually the true painkiller for one's heartache.

Walking on broken glass...

Overstepped on some broken glasses. I think i did not only broke glasses but there were even some crystals out there. The wound will heal but the scars will always be there to remind us that we are only merely His humble creatures. It's just that when sometimes if i forgot about the broken glasses I do need a hammer to knock this ego of mine to make me realise once again who I am in this world.

The same goes with trust I guess. It's hard to earn but so easily to lose it. Am I to trusting? Call me naive but I'd like to think the positive sides out of even the baddest of them all. But do others still trust me? I'm not sure coz I even don't trust myself these days... Been motivating others a lot but i'm beginning to lose my own motivation...

Hopefully i'll be able to mend this broken heart-glass of mine err... but with typical UHU? Maybe, I guess living and serving others probably will be my strongest glue of faith to what God has probably prescribed for me so far...

Anger Management

Being angry is not something that I'm proud of but can't escape the feelings except I'm not angry @ anyone particular but @ myself. For being so angry @ being angry. A good colleague told me that you have to care your relationship with God and it will affect ur relationship with people and the entire universe eventually.

True, God must be angry with me for spending more time on others and not Him... Am trying and learning constantly but am really scared that history repeats again. Am trying so hard to seek forgiveness of those I've hurt before but still could not forgive myself. But first and foremost the forgiveness of the One and Only.

To manage the anger within, I'm glad I found some comforting words from people whom I believe God's given angels on earth. Personally, these people are mostly known to others but strangers to me but their words in a way help me in giving me strength. People whom I don't even notice all these while but have become among those close to my heart. May God bless them.